doldrums

I found out yesterday that in order to get my financial aid I have to sign up for fulltime credits this summer. That effectively doubles my tuition, lowering my financial aid substantially. However, if I don't go fulltime, I get almost nothing and that's worse. The worst part is that I can't afford to ride for the next three months (at least). I realize that sounds stupid, greedy, and self-centered but riding is one of my passions - something I truly love - and it hurts to realize that, for now, I have to let it go.